I wonder where you been!!! You totally understand me..! I don’t get down because of someone judging me when they don’t know what I’ve been thru and probably don’t look at their own life.. Might be because it’s easier to focus on others than on their own stuff..Thank you for the compliments I hope you can find and have everything you wish :)
Exactly!! Happy to be working and paying the bills!!
Right? I feel like I live in a different planet to the people of my age.. When I talk to them about important things I just don’t find nothing interesting in what they have to say
You see ? By written it all sounds different.. I didn’t meant that you meant that I don’t miss or need my family I was just explaining my situation now.. And not just to you but also to everyone that read this.. I do know what you mean because I did have a time when I was pregnant that I was afraid I was doing a bad thing bringing and innocent baby to this mean world and knowing that I won’t have always the chance to protect him from bad things and people.. But this is how it works.. I also understood you not wanting a family now but having it when you have a stability..
It does the most of time so probably yes.. Check this out.. I started to write to my now future mother in law by email.. She is an ex soldier of USA.. She is like 46 years old .. We both wrote this very long long emails talking about everything that could came to our mind and of course problems,stories etc.. And we socialize so easily that after a couple of mails we kind of knew each other already! She have never called me immature or arrogant or whatever.. She is actually one of the people who says that I’m very mature for my age.. And a lot of people who knows me in person tell me that so it may be something wrong with the internet!!.. Lol
They are long because I try to explain as much as I can to make myself clear.. Family for me is the n1 thing not just because of how I missed my parents presence but also because I think you can have a lot of things but at the end if you have everything but don’t have love.. What are you going to do with al that stuff..You didn’t give it or receive it.. Didn’t live it.. What’s the point of life? As I said people don’t know everything of my life.. I had said this before .. There’s not a lot of job opportunities here.. Italy have a huge economy crisis.. But you don’t know that cause you obviously don’t live here.. Now you know .. I came to find this job this summer because we have projects which I won’t tell here.. And I’ve been working for a month 10-12 hours at day (in August the hours will increase) with Riley at his grandma’s house here in Sardinia and Alex in Cuneo.. So right now we are all apart.. I’m doing right now the thing that I hate most and yet made me who I am today and made my dream real.. Which is .. stay away from my family like my mother did with me for a better future for us in an other place.. But.. In my case is just until august,otherwise I could have never come here.. I need my family too much to go on..I’m lost without them.. I’ve seen Riley 3 times since I’m here.. And Alex it’s finally coming next week which means we will see each other more often and anyways the job ends in20 days.. ( I’m also living with other people because that it’s how seasonal jobs works here)Finally!
Will have my family back.. Now you see my intention is not to be maintained and have my ass on the sofa all day.. In that case I would have married someone rich..
My grandparents are part if my everything.. I love them so much..
I feel lucky to have grandparents like them.. After almost 40 years or something of being married they are still so happy.. Still flirt with each other.. I want that so bad.. If I know what love is is because of them.. ❤️
As I have said ( if I remember well) In USA being a waiter or waitress is not seen good.. In the rest of the world.. Which happens to be a lot bigger what matters is to have a job and be able to get to the end of the month.. You are right we don’t know what may happen tomorrow.. I take what I can get speaking of jobs opportunities.. My biggest target is always been having a family since I was a kid.. I grew with my grandparents because my mother came to Italy searching for a better future for us.. I never accepted that and while girls around me wanted barbies and stuff I had the Barbie but played with it just thinking about my mother that wasn’t there and my father neither.. Because of that there’s never been something that I’ve wanted more than having my own family and to give my children all the love I received from my grandparents but not by my parents..That’s why I’m happy and feel satisfied by what I have.. Why shouldn’t I? How many people have this?Not just having the family and the husband and the kid.. And then don’t even care about it..But “feeling”grateful for having it and be happy about i..I do.. As I said reading things it’s not enough to know and judge someone.. It’s not like you are looking into my eyes and watching my movements and actually studying my personality.. I understand the personality if someone by a lot of things..Of course I’m not going to say everything I’ve been thru cause some things are too personal for the whole world to know and there is no need for it..
What do you mean by having the blog forever? Oh do you think I spend my entire day on the blog? I don’t.. As I also said you see what I post you don’t see how my life really is day and night.. As I don’t know how is your journey.. And I obviously don’t need to write everything I do,will do,project to do or won’t do at all..By saying ‘that isnt right’ let me tell you that you are actually judging.. Now if people want to judge they are free to do so.. Who am I to say no? I can fight back and try to explain my self but if they don’t get it what should I do? Kill my self? If it doesn’t sound right for you I’m glad it does for me since I’m the one who is living the life that doesn’t sound right for you.. I’m just here to share my happiness.. Too many sadness in the world.. Don’t you think? I’m just easy I don’t hate people for what they think if it isn’t right for me.. I just live my life because is mine.. Not trying to be arrogant I just think like this.. Stop a minute and think how many things of your life you should change because of others judgements.. And yet you think all those things are right but they don’t .. So what are you going to do now?I don’t live for others I live for me.. We all live in different realities.. We all lived things who made us who we are today.. I’m a person who like to be free and tell what I think which is why I accept different thoughts and say: you don’t like it blue? Oh well I do love it blue.. I’m going to take the blue you are free to take the one you like.. I WON’T JUDGE..
I may sound like someone who get mad about everything but if you just read the words when I write “not trying to be mean-arrogant” you would see my point.. All I see is a number of people who is looking for reasons to judge.. Like : “mm mm.. It doesn’t sound right.. There has to be something wrong there.. Let me search for it” ..
Because I have nothing to hide.. Just because I think different doesn’t mean I don’t have to share it.. I could have hide some questions but everything you see are every one I received even that I like them or not.. Why shouldn’t I?
You can find all the answers in the ANSWERS section of my blog :)
I posted a picture from the day before the orange bikini.. As you can see.. I’m not that thin..
I noticed that too! Not sure if it was the pose or what.. My shoulders are thin I guess it really it’s just the pose and the fact that high waist bikinis define the waist wich can make me look thinner..Also because the other picture (the one with one girl) was taken 3 weeks ago and I work 10 hours at day so I don’t think I could stand up if I had those kind of problems.. An other thing for people who looks if I’m too thin or muscular., not trying to be mean.. I don’t workout from a while now.. And also I don’t have eating disorders .. Never had .. I can stop doing a lot of things but eating it’s not one of them.. Love chocolate,arroz con frijoles and pasta too much for that!! Plus I don’t think I need it and don’t approve it for others neither.
Thank you.. Can you do some examples when I sound rude and it wasn’t necessary?Anyway is not my intention to sound rude.. If and when I do is when I read people judging us.. Since I put a lot on public I do also know that a lot of people won’t think the way I do and it’s normal because we all are not the same.. If people insult me they may have the same treatment otherwise I can say I am one of the most kind and genuine person ever.. Also things sound different written than in person.. By that also I can’t judge someone just for one thing because I do not know her.. I’m just seeing pictures and videos.. Who tell you that in person I’m arrogant or something? Actually I’m the kind of person that love to socialize and is always laughing about everything .. I’m very positive.. I can’t expect people to understand that from a blog.. Some people here add me on fb and wrote to me telling that they would love to meet me in person.. So I guess I’m not that childish or arrogant.. And I do have some friends I met on the internet and write to me about their life and problems.. Social networks are hard.. I can’t be liked by everyone.. I show the real me.. If there is something people don’t like they can tell me.. But without insulting me.. It’s a free world and everyone can think and live how they want.